I'm going to be entering my third year of COLLEGE.
And I feel like an idiot.
All through high school, I wanted to be a sports journalist. Then at orientation for college, I changed my mind and switched my major to Criminal Justice and then to Law and then back to Criminal Justice and then last year to Forensics.
That is what I want to do with my life. But I feel so late to make a dramatic change!
I was making a copy of my class schedule for this year and I couldn't help but feel like a failure! Intro to Bio? Intro to Chem? FRESHMEN CLASSES! But I'm supposed to be a JUNIOR.
I feel like I waited to long to change my major! I know I want to do this but I'm just so freaked out I'll never finish school! Its not until this upcoming semester that I'll be taking major related courses. I mean I'm not even in CALCULUS, I'M A 3RD YEAR AND PRECALC.
I feel like for being a forensics major, I should have already memorized the periodic table of elements and tackle the most difficult math problems! And should have so much more knowledge!
I mean granted, my minor is Criminal Justice and I'm done with that and I have had such great CRJ classes, but I just feel like I shouldn't feel this lost so late!
Maybe I should have done community college for 2 years and then transferred instead of doing all this discovering at a private and pricey university. But 2 years ago, I was not the same person. I was Chelsea the girl who can't stand blood and wants to write about the Yankees. Now I'm Chelsea the girl who has gotten an iron stomach and wants to work in a lab dealing with things that would have made me pass out.
But 2 years ago, I knew I got into a great school that was great for my major. And thank goodness, my school is still awesome since I changed my major.
I don't know, I just feel so late in the game. And down. I mean I'm only 20. But I always wanted to finish in 4 years. AND THEN GRAD SCHOOL. Ugh!